Need Some Space.

Heyy guys? what's up? I hope your life was grateful and full of happiness. My life was just suam suam kuku rasa hambar teruk and need time to make my life become more wonderful haha.

Am I worth for them? Am I good for them? Am I really bad? Am I don't deserve someone? Idk. But lately i had been think that i lack of everything. I feel liked I failed to make people love me like I love them. I failed to make they stay with me. I failed to make they appreciate me.

Kadang I rasa macam I dah buat banyak benda just to make them happy, to make them appreciate me but I just get hurt :') I know, maybe you guys rasa I overthinking, emotional yada yada okay it's fine. I accept that. But the think you must know is you're not in my shoes :) Look, I'm updating my blog back not because I want attention or sympathy from people (if they read my blog) but it's just the way I want to clear out my mind. Sometime you just need to write what you feel instead of talk to others because no one can exactly feel what you feel right now.

For those who read my blog (i guess no one will read it haha) I need some space. I really need space. I just want to be alone. Kalau ikutkan hati I nak tukar nombor, nak tutup all my social media yada yada but yeayy i will think about it. I feel so sick right now. My heart sick. But, don't worry I believe it's will be okay. Just need some time to heal. xoxo

What Are They For?

Hi, i had been think a lot this week and it's make me demotivated and stress. I feel so bored of what am I doing right now and wanna give up.

Then, I luah apa I rasa dekat kawan-kawan I, abang I instead of luah dekat family I. Bukan apa I taknak family I risau. Padahal bukan masalah besar pun. Diri sendiri macam emosi terlebih haha. Macam selalu.

I just want to share my point of view in certain things. I actually feel so grateful because had so many positive people in my life. I had good friends, good big brother, good seniors and others. Also, my family is kind of good and supportive one.

I realized that they always with me in any situation. Always give good words and opinion to me when i feel down. Even though thy were not around me but i still feel their presence. I had good friends either in kajang or batu pahat. These both place make me so comfortable and happy when hang out with my friends, lepak-ing, makan tak ingat dunia, macam-macam lagi lah. They also give me attention when i need that haha. Yeahh, what are friends for? Live with your friends right now is much more better rather than busy looking for right person. I mean yes we need someone to get married but then the question is how much we were ready? Enjoy your life first with your family and friends.

Last but not least, thank you guys. Thank you for all of your support. My heart still can heal well tho it hurts but my friends always at my back. Thank you so much! xoxo :)